Spoke with Ros

[Deanne Jenkyns]

Hi,
Just thought I would let you all know that I have spoke with Ros today and she is spending some time with her daughter in Liverpool. We are all thinking of you ros ((((hugs)))



Deanne
xxx

[Vicky]

Hi Ros,

I hope it is a comfort being with your daughter.. as Deanne says we are all thinking about.

Sending you lots of love and ((hugs))

Love Vicky xxxxxx

[dtay]

Ros - pleased that you are with your daughter. Thinking of you.
Dawn x

[phillipa]

Hugs Ros...I can't say anything other than you are surrounded by such kind people with loving thoughts

[norfolkbirdie]

Hi All
Seems such a long time since I posted and let you all know how I'm doing. Been reading all yours and keeping up to date though, just haven't had the ability to post anything! Been through the various meetings with Docs at hospital to try and find out why they didn't discover Dave's problem earlier and as you may have guessed, they closed ranks,agreed their stories and admitted nothing. Dave's Onc was even nasty about Dave and his state when he saw him, which I couldn't believe!!! Anyway the result is nothing!! For me I had the opportunity to say the things I wanted face to face, was it worth it? Probably not, it caused me more pain than them.
I had the final meeting with the Onc last Thursday and I haven't stopped crying since, that's when he made the insinuations regarding Dave! I have to now accept that I have done all that I can and try and move on. Easier said than done, my brain can't stop going over events and it's driving me crazy, just seem to have gone right back to the beginning again and hurt just as bad.
I went to sit with Dave yesterday and tell him all this stuff, still a very unreal place that I am in.
I know I need to get my head together and set myself some goals to achieve but I then just can't think beyond where I am and the brain sets off on it's own way. I spend most of the nights arguing with myself and end up falling asleep for a couple of hours around dawn and so to another day, you do start to think what's the point, where am I going, is this it for the rest of?
See told you all I was going crazy but the saving grace is that I know I am ,therefore I'm not!!

Ros

[Deanne Jenkyns]

Dear Ros,
Lovely to hear from you, I just wish that the content of your post was a happier one, it's so sad to read what you are going through I cannot even begin to imagine how painful things are for you. I just wish their was something I could say to make all the hurt go away and make you feel better. The Oncologist and hospital where Dave had his treatment have treat you appallingly! The fact that they are getting away with it makes my blood boil! I cannot even for one moment imagine the effect this is having on you. As if your grief is not enough to cope with you have this extra weight on your shoulders and it must be so hard for you to carry this around with you. ((((hugs)))) Thinking of you always Ros.

Deanne
xxx